Most beginning writers dream of being published, of seeing their books on the bookstore shelf and meeting readers who love their work. After all, your imagination has become a physical thing. Through books, writers give shape to something that didn’t exist before.
The downside, though, is that the novelty of being a published writer can start to wear thin. And while you can feel satisfied about making your dream a reality, it’s only when you’re published that you see the book world for what is – a business. And this can lead to feelings of insecurity and doubt, especially if your book isn’t a bestseller or if you perceive other writers as being more successful than you.
What I miss most about my pre-publication days is writing for no one other than myself. There were no expectations. It was just me and my laptop. I experienced my creativity in true isolation and there was something intrinsically rewarding about that. I understand that now more than I did back then, hurdling towards the finish line.
I wish I’d had the foresight to pause, look up from the keyboard, and appreciate the silence.